I’ve been a bad girl. I’ve allowed myself to get distracted by a thousand different things, become a virtual social butterfly, and forgotten what’s really important to me—writing my book.
Something needs to be done.
My problem is I’m afraid of the blank page. I’m afraid that the vision in my head won’t translate and that the agent who is waiting for my manuscript will be disappointed when she reads it. The fear has crippled me and driven me to fill my hours with every other kind of busyness I could think of. I can be a remarkably creative procrastinator.
So I’ve announced my withdrawal from Facebook and Twitter for one month, I’m updating my two-week-old Google+ presence only once daily, and I’m withdrawing as editor of the Steampunk Shakespeare anthology.
That last decision has been the most difficult one to make. I love the project, the stories that have been submitted are wonderful, and my co-editors Matt Delman and Jaymee Goh have worked so closely with me on it that I will miss their e-mails back and forth very much indeed.
I want to be an author. I want to see if I can pull this off. I want it badly enough to do the scariest thing ever and actually write. Every day. All day. Until it’s done.
I hope those of you who depend on me for updates, info, and answers will understand my temporary withdrawal from the public sphere. I also wish the best of luck to the Steampunk Shakespeare writers, who will be well looked after by Matt and Jaymee going forward. I will return to the team to promote it on publication.
I look forward to celebrating with you all when my month’s self-inflicted incarceration is over!
Here’s the advice from Ira Glass that helped me come to this decision. If you’re in the same place as me, I hope it helps you, too.